Thursday was my 9th wedding anniversary. Mark and I are celebrating with a few days in Muskoka. I couldn’t really travel too far because of the pleural effusion. I wanted to stay close to home and was worried about the pressure from flying.
So, here we are, looking out over Lake Rosseau and enjoying a few days of quiet, just the two of us. I asked Mark this morning if he ever thought about what life would have been like if he married someone healthy, or if he ever regretted his decision because of all we’ve been through. Of course, he said no. But it’s a reasonable question given that we’ve been married for nine years and cancer has been a part of our lives for almost six of those years. What if? Two small words that carry such meaning…
On another note, I have decided on Fester as the name for my cancer. I like it for various reasons. The implication of the name as something that festers but can always be gotten rid of maintains optimism. Plus, it’s not too negative-sounding or something that would make you want to cringe. My father wanted to name it F.O. but we decided against that.
We have also found a dog. We got an adorable cockapoo puppy that we will pick up next week. I am so excited! I will post a picture once we pick her up. Her name, as per Sydney, will be Poppy.
Speaking of Sydney, I am missing her terribly. We dropped her off at the bus for camp on Tuesday and I have been checking the camp website every five minutes for pictures. She was so excited she literally pushed me out of the way to get onto the bus. The pictures that I have seen are all ones where she is smiling and looking like she is having a great time. I just wish that I could talk to her. It is so hard not having any form of communication with her. Whenever I have gone on a trip without her, I have still spoken to her every day. I want to hear her voice, hear the happiness and excitement. I want to know what she is doing, what she feels…argh! Ten more days.
Okay, I am going to go back to Mark and enjoy our anniversary with him. I feel truly lucky to have him in my life — he is my best friend and we need to celebrate the good in our life and our relationship. Enjoy the sunshine!